My Purpose:

So i have been trying to figure out what my purpose is while here on  earth since my sister passed away on May 12th 2015. I have prayed and meditated and still I am not closer to finding my purpose. Has anyone else ever pondered on "why am I here" or am i the only one. I am sure that i am not the only one that has ever asked that question to try to find the meaning of life. I hope that one day very soon the answer will somehow fall into my lap.

When I lost my sister I guess I lost a piece of myself along with her when my son passed away in 2006 i lost a piece of myself then also. I keep losing more and more of me that I wonder how much "me" is even left. I feel so confused and so alone since my sister left this earth. She was always a big part of my life more like a mom to me then a sister and she was also my best friend. I mainly now sit and wonder how i will live the rest of my unsubstantial life without her grounding me.

So this is my 1st post on this blogger and i plan on it becoming a big part of my life. I named my blog beths ramblings because that is all i plan on writing is just whatever is on my mind at the moment nothing that has any kind of straight forward plan just my ramblings....